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 ♥ R FOR REBECCA A little bit of narcissism won't hurt, and vanity isn't a sin. Email: rebeccaa.-@hotmail.com  Tagboard
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Friday, October 26, 2007
I took a half day leave today, 'cos i can't wake up this morning to work. I know im damn lazy! :/ All thanks to joel, we chatted on the phone till 12plus am, then finally he wants to put down the phone. I swear i am very tired already. And sorry tricia for making you so emo and upset! Haha. I'll ask joel to make funny faces and dance monkey dance for you ok. Heee (: I guess im really not fated to see joel. He came over to cine today, and i didn't turn up. And yesterday when he passed by, i also never manange to come down on time! Haha. Too bad lor. Alot of things are going 'thru my mind just now. I was really thinking alot about things between me and zhirong. I can't deny the fact that his face still appears in my mind everynow & then. Expecially when i am all alone, i'll start to reminisce the happy past that we used to have, and those lan jiao tai ji he've done on me. Pardon me for using those words. And the bad memories always covers the good ones. Or perhaps, there's just too little of the good ones. Sighs. 'Cos i know happy moments don't last long. I think its not because i don't want to let go, but there's just so much of unfair treatment, and i just can't swollow all this down myself, when i can see him happily enjoying out there. Its just too unfair! And i also knew im the one who's going to suffer, carrying so much of hatred and burden on me. So can someone please teach me how to forgive and forget? I have never met someone as wicked as him. I never thought that a person would be like this. I ever ask him does he have any self conscious, or is it his self consicious is being eaten up by bull dog?I admit im still a newbie baby , he always says im to blame for my stupidity, for giving him one chance after another to hurt me again and again. So tell me how am i going to not hate him? I always tell myself that i can change him into a better person, or perhaps being nice to him even though he treats me bad will make him guilty, but all these doesn't work at all! I guess he's just so mei you yao jiu already. Fucking jerk. Sigh. I seriously hope he can read all this, and fucking get your brain wash up. You always think you're so OH-DAMN-RIGHT, but let me tell you, this is not going to bring you far. You think im childish, but i tell you, you're so immoral. I doubt even Jesus would forgive you. Alright, im stopping here. Gonna get prepare and off to work. WithLove, Rebecca. |
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